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Losing Paradise....Gaining Understanding

Posted by Lorraine Serra on June 4, 2013 at 8:25 AM

Did you know God makes a way for his children, even when there seems to be no way?

It is the great frustration of human life that we don’t have a crystal ball!  If only we could see into the future so that we could avoid certain steps on the journey and move directly into the so called “promised land”.

Today as I think back over my youth and continue to search out how God moved in my life to bring me into a solid awareness of His presence, I cannot ignore the fact that He often used painful circumstances.  I am not saying He sent the pain.   Pain is part of the human condition.  It is part of this imperfect world.

The Bible calls it “the fallen world”.   Of course, that refers to the fall of Adam and Eve into sin.  Rejecting God’s perfect loving provision and second-guessing His wonderful, protective instruction resulted in losing Paradise. 

I have no trouble believing the literal text of this account in Genesis.   It is evident to me that the gift of free will which God gave to mankind has produced all kinds of fallen, evil and broken conditions throughout history.  And not one of us is exempt.  We participate in it, and we sometimes get caught up in the fallout from our choices as well as the choices and conditions of others.  Done deal.  It’s a fact.

That said, one of the greatest pains possible for any family is to have a sick parent.  Would you agree?   There are, of course, a host of others. But,  when a parent is sick, the whole family suffers, and chaos ensues. 

Normal disappears. 

Tension, anxiety, confusion, anger, frustration, sadness, hopelessness appear.

Our mom suffered a “nervous breakdown” when I was 12 years old.  My 4 sisters and I didn’t really understand what was happening…not to mention our poor papa.  There had been these crazy mood swings, angry outbursts, and sudden bouts of hysteria and tears.  Clearly, mom was not herself.

Hospitalization became necessary, and that summer was life changing.  It was a blur of uncertainty.  To this day, I am sure my coping mechanism was to just shut down emotionally and live in the moment…only the moment.   It was all I could handle.   I still live like that pretty much, though not out of fear or uncertainty.  Now, it is more out of appreciation for each moment.  

My sisters and I were split up and sent off to live with different relatives.  Daddy needed to work, and we were all too young to be home alone.  Not knowing how long this illness would last, it seemed like a good solution until things got back to “normal”.

“Normal” would never be the same.  Mom was diagnosed as bi-polar, manic depressive, and so began a life long journey with these mental and emotional disorders.  So also began an education into possible causes of these behaviors.

The “fallen world” produces pain, guilt, hardship and victims.  Jesus produces life, healing, love and victory over those things. Through the years I have come to appreciate what scripture teaches, that what Satan meant for evil, God has turned to good.   He does make beauty out of ashes. …another favorite verse of mine. 

I’ll share more next time. There is so much God has taught me.   But, for now,  this mediation I wrote a while back may encourage you today in whatever you are facing.  You are never alone.   Trust Jesus.   I bet you heard the expression, "When God closes a door, He opens a window."   Can't wait to tell you more of my story.   I want to hear yours, too.  Your comments are welcome.

  God bless you.  Let me know how I can pray for you.   

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Reply Linda
9:45 AM on June 5, 2013 
Beautifully expressed, Lorraine. God has certainly had His hand on you through these years to be able to come to those conclusions...and be a source of hope and encouragement to others (me included!). You are in my prayers!