|Posted by Lorraine Serra on May 28, 2015 at 2:40 PM|
I have been feeling sort of stuck for the past week. Has that ever
happened to you?
It is a feeling that can come and go from time to time. The very
nature of its sudden appearance and subsequent disappearance
makes me realize that we can all suffer a bit from the “overwhelm factor”.
It's as if I fall into a big hole piled up with too many tasks
to accomplish, too many goals to meet, too many voices
to answer to, those of others and those in my own head, too.
Is it burnout? Is it time for a break? Is it guilt?
Maybe it's the expectation that spring means
cleaning, weeding, mowing, and getting back in shape.
Yikes! I'm exhausted just thinking about it!
Whatever it is, it certainly makes me feel stuck,
unable to do anything at all!
My energy is low, my enthusiasm is shriveling,
and while I am still moving through the normal
activities of life, it seems so much the same old
same old. Can you relate?
It is so hilarious to me that I can burn with passion
about life and then flip flop in the opposite direction.
No wonder Jesus calls us to live for Him....to die to
self. Because the self can be so demanding, and
Thank you, Jesus, that You
love me even when I am so weak and useless!!
I confess that my time spent in scripture has
been on hold for about one week. Oh, I have
listened to Christian music and watched
Christian TV. And my heart gets a little
nudge, my spirit feels like a starving child
in Sudan pleading for just one more bowl
of life-giving food.
Is that a startling picture to you? Well,
I know this picture is the reality for me.
I am starving, my Savior is right beside me,
where He always is, and I have been too
wrapped up in my weird self feelings to open
myself in order to be filled again.
Self....self scrutiny, self criticism, self
doubt......Turning away from my Lord
to focus on self....just look where it got me!!
I've been here before...No doubt I'll be
here again. But, if anyone else can benefit
from knowing you are not alone in
this, then let's get back in the scriptures
to find our hope, and our eternal joy, no
matter what else is on our plates!
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature:
old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
2 Corinthians 5:17
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
For His mercies never fail. They are new every morning;
Great is Your faithfulness, O Lord!
Categories: Always In His Hands